This memorial website was created to remember Archie" Bully" Brown Jr who was born in Austin, Texas on November 20, 1955 and passed away on February 24, 2006 at the age of 50. You will live forever in our memories and hearts.
This site is dedicated to all of us that he left behind
For those of you who are just visiting for the first time, this site has been like a journal for some of us. If you would like, you can read through the memories which have been posted for the past 3+ years and see the journey of some of our grief. I will almost guarantee you will probably shed some tears while reading these letters we wrote to Bully.
If any of you ever want to write or add anything to this site, please do. The only thing that I ask is that you not write anything that someone else may find offensive.
Love you all, Dee Dee
Here is a sonnet that Alaina wrote for a school project. As you can see, her Daddy is always on her mind and he is also her inspiration in almost everything she does.
My Broken Heart
The rain beats down onto my broken heart
These bonds that hold me close to you so tight
I cry about the things that keep us far apart
So scared alone within the moonless night
To wait for the next time that we meet again
And to know what we live for is not such a waste
You gave me love and something to believe in
You taught me not to live my life in haste
In my memories you will always remain
And the many tears that fall down my cheek
But this life of mine will never be the same
Because of the day that you went into eternal sleep
Even if I could dream of a better tomorrow
Thinking of you will always lead to sorrow
This sonnet is dedicated to my Dad
Archie Brown 1955 - 2006
God decided that it was time. So he put his arms around him and whispered, "Come With Me". And now with tearful eyes, we all feel the pain.
Although we loved him dearly, we could not make him stay. A golden heart stopped beating and a warm heart God put to rest. God broke our hearts to prove, he only takes the best.
The Broken Chain
We little knew that morning that God was going to call your name
In life we loved you dearly, in death we do the same.
It broke our hearts to lose you, you did not go alone
For part of us went with you, the day God called you home.
You left us peaceful memories, your love is still our guide
And though we cannot see you, you are always at our side.
Our family chain is broken,and nothing seems the same
But as god calls us one by one, the chain will link again.
Death is nothing at all,
I have only slipped away into the next room,
I am I and you are you;
Whatever we were to each other, That we still are.
Call me by my old familiar name,
Speak to me in the easy way which you always used,
Put no difference in your tone,
Wear no forced air of solemnity or sorrow.
Laugh as we always laughed at the little jokes we shared together.
Let my name ever be the household word that it always was.
Let it be spoken without effect, without the trace of a shadow on it.
Life means all that it ever meant,
It is the same as it ever was, there is unbroken continuity.
Why should I be out of mind because I am out of sight?
I am waiting for you, for an interval, somewhere very near, just around the corner.
All is well.
“There is a sacredness in tears. They are not the mark of weakness, but of power. They speak more eloquently than ten thousand tongues. They are messengers of overwhelming grief...and unspeakable love.”
Love is stronger than death even though it can't stop death from happening, but no matter how hard death tries it can't separate people from love. It can't take away our memories either. In the end, life is stronger than death.
Alaina had written these poems for school last year.
Daddy
I barely remember that day,
oh,the wintery day you were laid in the ground.
The tears didn't fall then,
but how to know it would turn around.
Would it be now that you're away,
to sit at a stone,
and listen to the wind.
A small prayer to the sky,
hoping that the wounds would mend.
But knowing no one can replace you.
Alaina Brown
To See You Again
I hope to see you again
Someday to hear your voice
I hope to see you again
To touch your skin
I hope to see you again
And say I love you Dad
I hope to see you
Maybe in my dreams
Alaina Brown
Let us so live that when we come to die even
the undertaker will be sorry.
Mark Twain
Those we love don't go away,
They walk beside us every day,
Unseen, unheard, but always near,
Still loved, still missed and very dear.
Mourning is not forgetting... It is an undoine. Every minute tie has to be untied and something permanent and valuable recovered and assimilated from the dust. The end is gain, of course. Blessed are they that mourn, for they shall be made strong, in fact. But the process is like all other human births, painful and long and dangerous.
This poem was posted from Yvonne....
His memory is my keepsake with which I will never part.
God has him in is keeping, I have him in my heart.
Dear God,
I miss my husband.
I carry his memory with me
wherever I go.
I pray that you will remind me
that he remains a part of me
in everything I do, and
everything that I am.
Continue to show me that he
is still a part of my life and
that nothing can separate us.
I as that you keep the bonds
between us strong in spirit
until the day that we are
reunited in heaven.
Amen
Life Will Never Be The Same
The moment you died,
My heart split in two.
One side filled with memories.
The other died with you.
I often lay awake at night,
When the world is fast asleep.
And take a walk down memory lane,
With tears upon my cheeks,
I hold you tightly within my heart,
And there you will remain.
Life has gone on without you,
But never will it be the same.
He Calls To Me
He calls to me across the miles
Night winds carry his whispers
They float on the breeze and through my windows
Falling gently upon my ears
- Hush -
I hear him now.
He calls to me from the heavens
Glittering stars cannot compare to the sparkle of his eyes
When he looks at me, I am consumed by the fire
I see him now.
He calls to me through my dreams
Dancing together in the shadows of my sleep
Where we laugh and love once again
I am in his arms
I feel him now.
He calls to me
Every moment of the day
Distance couldn't keep us apart
When destiny drew us together
I'll hold him for eternity
As long as he keeps calling.
When tomorrow starts without me,
and I am not there to see.
If the sun should rise
and find your eyes,
all filled with tears for me.
I wish so much
you wouldn't cry,
the way you did today.
While thinking
of the many things
we didn't get to say.
I know how much
you love me
as much as I love you.
And each time
that you think of me,
I know you'll miss me too.
I keep in my heart the love of our past.
Roses
If roses grow in Heaven, Lord please pick a bunch for me, place them in my husband's arms and tell him they're from me.
Tell him we love and miss him, and when he turns to smile, place a kiss on his cheek and hold him for a while.
Remembering him is easy, we do it every day, but there's an ache within our hearts that will never go away.
I seldom ask for miracles, But today just one would do, To leave the door wide open and see my love walk through. I'd wrap my arms around him and kiss his smiling face, For he was someone special that no one can replace. Rest well, my love... We are better people for having known you. Thank you for sharing your life with us.
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yvonne |
Diane |
9/3/08
Sweetheart,
Just wanted to write a few thoughts on this day, the day we should be celebrating our 32nd anniversary. I've kept myself busy most of the day, knowing that if I let myself think about today that I would've been sad today. I have enough sad days that just pop up for no reason, theres no need in creating another one. Besides, I knew that I would be writing you a note tonight and the tears would start flowing just like they do everytime I write you.
Babe, I miss you still so much. I know its been over 2 yrs now, but I can't help it. We belong together and I will always feel that way. I know that you are waiting for me, and believe me, I can't wait until I get to be by your side again! I've given up on putting a time limit on going through your things and taking off my wedding ring. I'll wear them for the rest of my life if I feel like it. I can't bear to part with them.
I still feel like we were all cheated, especially me in growing old with you. We had actually made plans about how we were going to spend our retirement years, and now I have no idea how thats gonna be for me. I hate being alone! Really hate it, but not enough for me to find someone else. I want you to be here! I really need you, but I guess god needed you more. I know you are up there watching out for us because everytime I get in a bind, something happens out of the blue and all my problems are solved.
Bully, I miss you and think of each and every day, all day and all night. You are always on my mind. I am definitely learning to become more independent, but there are still a few things that I have to rely on others to help me with. Alaina has become my little handyman believe it or not, she has fixed several things aroung here including the dishwasher. And I don't even know how she knows how to do it. Im sure its you guiding her.
The girls and I talk about you everyday. You always come up in our conversations. You are still a part of us and in our lives. Please stay with us, guide us, and continue to teach us to be the best that we can be.
We love you honey and always will...Dee
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